Thursday, August 28, 2014

Sports Bras for Bigger Girls

I never realized how hard it is to find a sports bra for a plus size woman until other day.  Not only am I plus sized, but I am also a size D cup.

In all my years of exercising,  I never needed one. I always used old bras that I no longer need for everyday.  My exercise routine consisted of walking, the elliptical,  bike riding,  or swimming.  Now I am taking Zumba, which requires a lot of jumping and hopping.  It became very apparent that I would need something to hold the girls down.

I went to at least four stores, and all were the same. They either didn't have my size or they had the size around,  not the cup size. I found that a bra that crisscrossed in the back was a must. Regular straps didn't offer enough support. I also couldn't see a reason to buy a bra with padded cups. Really? Who would need that for exercise?

I ended up buying a bra at Walmart of all places.  Only $12 for two. The colors are a little loud for my taste,  but it works perfectly for me. They are very comfortable.  Another requirement in my opinion. It was much nicer doing Zumba with the girls firmly in place.

Do you have a favorite brand of sports bra?  What do you look for when picking one out?


Tuesday, August 12, 2014

I Didn't Get It

I found out late yesterday afternoon that I didn't get the job in Texas. This doesn't come as much of a surprise. When I applied, I knew my chances of getting the position were pretty slim. If someone with more experience or with supervisory/management experience were to apply, I would be competely out of the running. That's exactly what happened.

I did get offered a position. Unfortunately, it would be hourly with no relocation package. There is no way I can afford to move out to Texas on my own. It would be too expensive. So it seems that I will be staying in Indiana.

I'm not going to lie.  I'm a little bummed.

As I said in my previous post, I love my job and the company I work for. The problem is that I am getting bored in my current position. Not bored as in there is nothing to do, but bored as in I no longer feel challenged. I've doing this for almost two years (two years at the end of September). I know the position. I understand all the processes we do. Every once in a while I will get a group that throws a curve ball at me, but for the most part it's the same 'ole, same 'ole.  

I'm ready for more. More responsibility. More challenging work. Just more.

I will give it time. We'll see what the next few months bring. I'm also going to keep my eye on the job postings for my company. If I see something I think I can do, I'm going to apply.

Monday, August 11, 2014

Monday Missions for 8/11

This week’s weather in Indy is: Rainy and cool.

I am traveling: Hopefully to my sister's house over the weekend. My nephew has a football game. I love watching him play. Look at how tough he looks? Actually I just think he is adorable.

Ignore my attempts at Photoshopping identifying information. I don't need anyone stalking my sweet boy.

Creative projects for the week: Redecorating the bathroom.There has been a seashell motif for about three years. I think it's time for a change. I'm looking at ideas this week, but won't change anything until next paycheck.

I am thinking: About all the many things I need to do

I am hoping: For a peaceful week without any major drama.

I am looking forward to: Zumba on Wednesday.

I am worried about: Money. That's nothing new.

What I am praying for: Guidance. There are so many things I am confused about right now. I need a change of some kind.

I am learning: Spanish. Our public library has free language courses online.

The rest of my week will be: Busy. It's Gen Con for Indianapolis. I love Gen Con, but it means the hotel is super busy.

Something I would like to do this week: Survive. That's the goal. I need to get through the week.

Source of inspiration for the week: Nothing. I'm kind of bummed this week.

Household Goal: None at this time. Just to keep things clean I suppose.

Fitness Goal: Push myself more, but watch my knees. I need to go easy on non-Zumba days.

How I am handling stress: Still using music and walking.And venting to my poor sister. Ha! ha!

Wednesday, August 6, 2014

How Do You Measure Success?

Today was weigh in day. It wasn't a good weigh in day - at least for the number on the scale. 

I gained 1.7 lbs this week.

LilySlim Weight loss tickers

I have been fluctuating between 316 and 320 for about two months now. To say that I wasn't happy was an understatement.

Last month was my 30 day challenege for July. I worked really hard at exercising almost everyday and moving more on the days that weren't set aside for actual exercise. I watched what I ate - not perfectly - but I did watch. I tried to stay positive and motivated. I was sure I lost weight.

Seeing the number on the scale made me upset.

But then I stopped myself. I reminded myself that weight loss is more than the number on the scale. So I went to my room and grabbed the measuring tape.

I lost inches. 
Neck - Same
Waist - down 1.5 inches - WHAT?
Hips - down 1/2 inch
Upper Arm - down 1 inch
Bust - Up 1/2 inch
Thigh - down 1/2 inch
Calf - Up 1 inch

Even my calf going up an inch made sense! I've been working on my legs, especially my knees, trying to strengthen the muscles there. The treadmill has a setting especially for the knees and lower legs. It makes sense that I would build muscle.

At the start of my weight loss journey, I lived and died by the scale. If the number went up, I was a failure. If the number went down, I was a success. A bad weigh in day would ruin my entire week. It would even cause me to binge. It would cause my brain to start saying things like:

You'll always be fat. 
You'll never be able to do it. 
You should just eat whatever. It doesn't matter anyway, fatty!  
You're just fat, fat, fat.

Now I realize that success is found in trying. It's found in sticking to your plan regardless of the bad weigh in days. It's found in getting up everyday and finding the will to exercise. It's found in planning your food, even when you really want to say screw it and eat pizza. It's found in making healthier choices than you did before.

That's success. It's about trying. It may take a really long time, but if I keep trying, I think I'll make it.

How do you measure success? Has your idea of success changed since you made the decision to become healthier?

Monday, August 4, 2014

Life is Short

I promised that I would share my career worry that I was praying about last week. I will not name the company I work for, but I will tell you what I'm thinking these days.

Those of you who have been reading my blog for a while know that I struggle with money. I don't lament over money problems, but I do occasionally bring them up. I don't make a terrible wage either. It's that the debt to income ratio for my Dad and I is way out of whack. Medical bills are killing us.

As many times as I have spoke about money struggles, I have also spoke about my current job situation. I love my job. The company I work for is the best company I have EVER worked for. When I took my very first position with them, it was done on a whim. I had been unemployed for four months, and at that point, I would have taken anything. I went in for my interview, and they hired me on the spot. I thought I would work there for a few months until something better came along.

It turns out that I fell in love with the job, so I never left. I always laughingly tell people that it took 6 years of college and four months of unemployment for me to find out what I wanted to be when I grew up.

The only downside is that I don't make a lot of money. I get paid very well for my position, but it isn't anywhere near what I made as a teacher. People constantly tell me,  "You should get a better paying job" or "You know you can get paid more elsewhere." I know that I can get paid more elsewhere, but I won't be happy. I was unhappy for years as a teacher. I went to work everyday because I thought I had to. I know what it's like to work the job that you hate. That's not what I want to go back to.

Plus, people don't understand when I tell them better opportunities will come. I just have to wait my turn. The company I work for is known for promoting. You know how most companies will send you to orientation and sell you the dream? "We'll promote you within a year. We have awesome benefits. You'll get a raise. We have endless opportunities." And the list goes on.

This company doesn't just sell you a fake dream. The dream actually exists. They really do give raises. They really do have awesome benefits. They really do promote. I should know. I've been promoted twice in my three years with them. You are given the chance to constantly learn and grow. The managers care about you, and you are viewed as a person - not a number. The company is opening new hotels all over the country, and the growth is tremendous. I know that if I work hard and stick it out, a great opportunity will come.

So what is my big career news? I decided to apply for a management position. It's the management version of the job I already have. The only dilemma I had to cross in my head is that it would require moving to Texas. I have lived in Indiana my whole life, so it was a little terrifying to think of at first. It took some hard thinking and a lot of praying on my part, but I decided to go for it.

Me, the woman who is afraid of all major change and who doubts EVERYTHING, decided to go for it. That is huge for me!

I don't know if I have any real chance of getting it since there are so many wonderful, talented people I work with. I do know that I am absolutely positive that I can do the job and do it well. We'll see what happens.

Either way, I am proud of myself. I am proud that I decided to try. Even if I don't get the job, I feel like I have grown by simply taking the chance. Sometimes you have to go for it; no matter how crazy it seems. Life is short. I don't want to be one of those people that looks back and has regrets.

Monday Missions for 8/4

This week’s weather in Indy is: More summer like. It's supposed to be in the mid-80's all week.

I am traveling: Nope. I'm not traveling this week.

Creative projects for the week: None

I am thinking: About all the stuff I need to organize in my house. It's insane how much stuff has been crammed into my closet.

I am hoping: For the same thing I did last week. It would be nice to hear something about the position I applied for.

I am looking forward to: Doing my treadmill workout with my new Kindle (Won in a blog giveaway. I didn't buy it.). It made Saturday's walk so much fun. I didn't even realize how sweaty I was until the workout was over. Time flew by!

I am worried about: My Daddy. He isn't feeling well today. He is all swollen from congestive heart failure.

What I am praying for: An answer to life. I'm very confused as to where life has me at the moment.

I am learning: Zumba! I have always wanted to try Zumba, but never took a chance until now. Wednesday is my very first Zumba class.

The rest of my week will be: Pretty slow actually. There isn't much happening at work or at home. Next week is my busy week.

Something I would like to do this week: Catch up on my DVRed shows. Sounds lazy right? I was so busy last week, that I didn't watch anything.

Source of inspiration for the week: Music. I've been listening to some upbeat tunes in the morning to help me get going for the day. This morning's song - Beautiful Day by U2. "It's a beautiful day. Don't let it get away."

Household Goal: Cleaning the closets out

Fitness Goal: Do 30 minutes of movement everyday. I notice that after the first week of exercising religiously, my knees actually feel better. When I take a day off, they stiffen up and creak a lot. I think the exercise is helping.

How I am handling stress: Walking. This really does seem to be the best stress reliever for me.